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You know guys, from this time that i have been away from DA... I have been doubting myself more than i should and more and more bad stuff has been piling onto my list of crap. Frankly i... i feel as if one tiny little thing is going to throw me over the edge just like it did before and this time i won't be coming back. I would give you some examples but this the internet not my diary. And this massive art block i was just going through can be traced all the way back to this stupid emotional mess in my head. When my parents ask me to talk about it the only thing i am able to say is "im done"
same with my friends
and family
i just don't know what to do anymore. i was told to keep drawing, keep writing music, keep playing piano and violin, focus on school, focus on friends, 
it 
just
won't
work.
Because even after i do all those things, even after i feel as though i patched things up with my parents
i'm just done...

And i know that "im not alone" but right now that is just a huge pile of shit.
What family am i going to turn to? Hm? My mother? The one that is causing all of this shit?
My dad? The one who laughed when the doctor said i have insomnia and told me that i don't need sleeping pills because its not insomnia its just my teenage brain...
or the friends who completely over look my emotional turmoil day after day.
the friends that forget i exist. 
the friends that complain about their mom being the worst mother in the world when 
all they have to do is go home and clean their room
while i have to go home and pull my drunk mother off the couch, pour out her beer like i'm a mother that just found her 15 year old drinking, hide her pain medication so when the addiction kicks in she'll at least have some trouble finding them, hide her cigarettes so maybe i can keep her alive for a few moments more, then go and talk my dad out of not beating her... again...

people ask me what i'm going through.... they never prepare themselves for that..... then they don't know what to say.... "oh well youre only 14 things will brighten up," "Oh well she's going to be fine, just give her some time"
time?
i really wish i had that

but i feel like my clock is ticking faster than my mothers

...

i'm just
so so very done

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Animal Zammies
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Hey everybody!
Now honestly I don't know how long I will be here but for now i'm staying
I have a style that is kinda weird and its constantly changing so I hope that won't confuse any one!
Well I go now, I hope you all have a good time here!
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T0xic-bubblegum Featured By Owner Aug 13, 2014  Hobbyist Artist

heeeeeey yooooo 

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Nimari-shinigami Featured By Owner May 11, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
thanks for faving!! :iconsupertighthugplz: 
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Katlovesminecraft Featured By Owner Apr 19, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Ohmyglob  I loves you art Nuu 
Like seriously though it's pretty badass La la la la :squee: 
Im so jealous of your skills Woohooooo! 
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animalzamzam Featured By Owner May 26, 2014  Hobbyist Artist
thanks man! 
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Katlovesminecraft Featured By Owner May 26, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
No problem ^-^
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:icont0xic-bubblegum:
T0xic-bubblegum Featured By Owner Feb 8, 2014  Hobbyist Artist
[casually falls out of bush]
Oh...hey there.
[clears throat]
I'd like to thank you for the watch. It truly mean a lot to me and i hope my latest stuff wont disappoint you!(ノ◕ヮ◕)ノ*:・゚✧ SPARKLES!!!
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:iconanimalzamzam:
animalzamzam Featured By Owner Feb 10, 2014  Hobbyist Artist
oh of course not!  your stuff is great man
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T0xic-bubblegum Featured By Owner Feb 11, 2014  Hobbyist Artist
oh, thank you~ :iconblushplz:
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kinddertoten97 Featured By Owner Feb 4, 2014  Student Traditional Artist
Youreprofilepictureisamazingjustsayin
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animalzamzam Featured By Owner Feb 4, 2014  Hobbyist Artist
Oh thanks! My friend drew it for me!
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